Wednesday, November 5, 2008

a constellation of fustration...

i always catch the clock
or should i say katch the klock
haha anyway..
yeah its 11:11.. you know the deal.. well, ive been wishing the same wish for a while lately
& partially it has come true
so im giving up

ive been nervous lately.
theres a knot in my stomach
i love how my anxiety attacks come at the most random of times.
rawr to them. im biting my nails again. the nail polish is chipping which means i need to repaint my nails like everyday bc im a perfectionist & it bothers the hell out of my when ONE LITTLE THING is wrong.

ive noticed that i always sound very sad in my writing
truth: im happy. no reason to complain
but i just feel like this sometimes for no reason (?)
i don't complain about it though because some people obviously have it much worse.
Andrew taught me that
"sometimes, your're circumstances suck. but life doesnt"

i tend to ramble
im doing it now
i need sleep
i think im writing so much because i really want something.
my journal has like 6 pages from today

aaaaaaaaaaaah!

1 comment:

Katey said...

I've been keeping a journal since I was little, and I seriously have like 10 of them all filled up. So, when you think you write too much, you're not alone haha.